the act of leaving

1.
each door leads to another door
i am not a hallway
i am a window
(look thru me)
no table no chairs
(look past me)
the downtime no passway
past causeway no halfway

i work against myself
in the far off non-speaking
poison inhabits darkness
darkness inhabits
(i) (i) (i)
in the downtime no passway
past causeway no halfway

growing rage (doesn't equal)
growing loneliness (doesn’t equal)
growing dark (doesn’t help)
growing out (doesn’t help)
equal to the downtime no passway
past causeway no halfway

speak now or why bother (no)
leave now or why bother (no)
all roads lead the same direction
wind blows north
i move south - no passway
past causeway no halfway

all the lights are red
it doesn't matter how far i drive
what a contradiction of forces
up down too far behind
one more day in this faulty body
leads to
downtime no passway
past causeway no halfway

mostly everything has a shadow

2
dreams of being blind in one eye and able to see in the other is a clear indication of the inbalance of my body
dreams of being chased, constantly, back and forth and back and forth and over and thru and back and forth
dreams of old men offering me advice, dreams of old men yelling advice at me, dreams of old men yelling
dreams of being blind in one eye  
dreams of being able to see
in the dream i am being chased
in the dream it is constant, back and forth and back and forth and over and thru and back and forth
dreams of old men offering me advice
dreams of old men yelling advice at me, why would i listen to you?
dreams of old men yelling - yelling is not offering, offers do not yell, why is everyone yelling?
dreams of a road i need to be on but I am too far north. Repeated repeated i know the road i know the side roads, i am on the wrong road i am too far north
the north road has a gate
i dream of the gate
there is no gate
i dream of the road
The road is not a dream
too far north
dreams of falling, a long fall from a high point. i cannot control my fall. i am falling. dreams of the ledge, dreams of the wind as i am falling. this is not a dream, this is falling

3.
we work
this works
we work
we work 
(2x)

why stop
this works
we work

we work
this works
we work
we work
(2x)

this works
this will work
this works
this works

4.
giving - receiving
these are words that mean nothing
to be - concealing
these are options to be revealing
the truth is an option
the sideline is guaranteed
dead end street lights leave nothing
show nothing - offer nothing

surviving - reviving
these are words used when beyond the point of no return
to be - concealing
these are options to be revealing
your truth is an option
the sideline is guaranteed
deadend street lights leave nothing

i can’t give my heart to anyone

5.
always working [readymade]
always moving [irongrade]
ignore [ignore]
in an active space
all issues can be ignored
in an active space

always in motion
means nothing works
readymade
irongrade
few problems exist
in an active space
all issues can be ignored
in an active space

always working [readymade]
always moving [irongrade]
ignore [ignore]
in an active space
all issues can be ignored
in an active space

brick walls and mortar
means nothing to the walls we build
{weighting the options between
foundation and walls
between windows and sky}

all issues can be ignored
in my active space

all issues can be ignored
in my active place